That was stupid. 

I deleted his number from my phone so I wouldn’t have to deal with the temptation. Then I signed online facebook for the first time in forever. 

I said this: Hope all is well, you’re probably drunk seeing as it’s superbowl night. Perhaps not. I miss you. I shouldn’t be messaging you, but I deleted your number and I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. So leave it to impulsive me to do this. I have enough Vyvanse to make a druggys day. That makes me think of you. Haha. Yeah, i think I had other things to say, but I can’t remember. HOpe all is good. I’ll regret sending this, but it is what it is. Miss you, kid, and the memories.